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Growing up!

It's only taken 5 years, BUT I finally have a great class for my fiction writing! We have class every Tuesday night for 3 hours and I was sure it would be boring and terrible, but so far it has been quite rewarding!

Moving on to todays topic: GROWING UP. I've done nothing but dread the graduation of college for the past 5 years, but I'm beginning to see that growing up doesn't have to be so awful! Now that I have a resume done, finding a job doesn't seem that far away! I also found a job that would be simply amazing for me! It's this website where people go to up and coming bars, clubs, lounges, coffee shops, etc... in big cities in Europe as well as LA and NYC. The employees go to these places and write about the atmosphere, type of crowd, and general feel of each place. Finding a job like this where I can actually enjoy my life would be the best thing that could happen to me!

I now have 5 months to get going on the hunt for a job... wish me luck!

LOST

Well, now that my computer has officially been murdered by liquid, it is now more important than ever for me to blog. Along with over 2500 songs, 5 years worth of photos, and countless homework assignments, I lost the most important thing of all: my writing. I can no longer attempt to get my poems or my short stories published to at least show some credibility as I apply for jobs in the coming months. So, dear whoever decided to spill all over my poor old Mac, thank you for ruining any chance I may have had at getting my writing career started. On the other hand, seriously thank you because I now have a new Macbook Pro. I love this computer so much I'm a heartbeat away from spooning with it in bed at night. Seriously. I never knew rebuilding my Itunes could be so much fun. I have discovered so many new bands that I can't get enough of.

THE SOCIAL NETWORK

I finally got to see the movie "The Social Network," about Mark Zuckerberg and how he created Facebook. I absolutely loved the movie, and they did a great job of finding the right actors to play the parts. Not to mention, Andrew Garfield doesn't hurt the eyes either. I can't imagine having gone through college without having Facebook. I feel like it's my way of connecting with so many people, as well as keeping me connected to friends who may have moved away or graduated before me. Social networking has become such a norm in this era that you may just miss the next big thing by blinking. In fact, I don't think I can even think of a single friend of mine that does not have a Facebook. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time to live when computers and cell phones weren't such a big part of life because I think my writing would be better then. Imagine if a movie like "The Notebook," had cell phones. Nothing would have happened the way it did in that movie. How does one write about love in the present with Facebook and texting, without it sounding completely ridiculous?

Now my big question of the week: New York City or Los Angeles? I just can't decide where I want to be and which one is the right choice. Only time can tell.

Sharing Time

ahhh lucky for me no one really reads my blog.... SO I've decided to brave putting up one of my poems... perhaps I'll decide to put up more later, we'll see... This is a poem from my poetry class a year ago.

The Wreck

Everything is glazed over like and eye's vision after a long cry

a twin sized bed centered in an all white room

lit only by the dim yellow light of fluorescents above

needles prod into my arm, forcing cool liquids through my veins

the beep-beep of a heart monitor squeezes my head

This is not my room,

no time for questions.

my eyelids, oversized curtains

shutting out the room

with closed eyes I see what brought me here

only everything is backwards

strapped down to a board

someone pumps air into my lungs

why can't I breathe on my own?

flashing lights, red and white

but they are upside down

and my head is scraping the roof of my car

I see my mother

reaching her hands out to me just the way she did

the last time I saw her

spinning me around blending

images into colors draining down a sink

being swallowed, turning into white

lights blinking, a horn blaring

wake up, it says, wake up!

and when i do there is nothing

but the sound of metal crunching

and bones snapping

In With the Old

I love when I go back through my itunes after a few years and make a playlist of all the songs I used to love so much. It's like rediscovering them, and loving them just as much as I did the first time around. It also takes me back through so many memories that will stay with me forever.

My favorite song forever in high school was Konstantine by Something Corporate, and after listening to it probably over 500 times in my life, I still will never stop loving it. Every time it can take me back to the summer before my sophomore year of high school riding in the car with my best friend Caitlin and her mom. We had just spent our night with two boys whom we swore we were in love with, as if we knew what such a thing was. That song meant everything to us for so long it's hard to not go back to those times. I miss her and how we were all those endless nights together. I still make a wish every time I catch 11:11. Something Corporate was also the first concert I ever went to, where Caitlin and I were the only two people there belting out every last lyric to Konstantine.

I always have favorite bands coming and going, but the one album that will always be number one in my heart is Transatlanticism by Death Cab for Cutie. That album got me through my days in high school when I tuned out every other kid in the halls and let the music keep me moving. The songs on that album will never be old to me no matter what, and I will never forget the hours I spent doing all of my artwork to it.

This is me telling everyone to go back through your old playlists, old albums you loved, anything you can find, and listen to them. Live your memories through them and enjoy.

Real Life

Since I've been incredibly sick, I've been spending a lot of time sitting in my room hanging out with HBO and Showtime. How wonderful it is to watch endless movies, which bring me to write this blog. Last week I watched The Time Travelers Wife. While this movie did make me cry sadly, it is nothing close to realistic. Obviously I know people cannot time travel, but that is not what I'm referring to. I'm talking about the love between to two main characters. The same love you see in movies like the Notebook. I do not believe that love like this exists. Someone please prove me wrong. Has anyone ever truly seen two people so "in love," that they literally hurt to be away from each other? Watch these movies and tell me you've ever been through this. If you have, then consider yourself lucky I guess. As for me? I am in love with a city, and that city is New York. New York won't ditch me for another girl, New York won't let me down, and New York will always be there for me!

Until one day that oh so great thing they call love comes and slaps me in the face... I do not believe in it.

Rediscovering what it's like to be a Freshman!

It may be my 5th year at Purdue this year, but really I feel like I'm a freshman all over again in the best ways possible! First, walking around campus to class, I find that I run into not nearly as many people as I used to forcing me to make uncomfortable small talk and awkward hellos. This may be one of my favorite things about the new year, as well as not having to see all those damn sorority bitches out anymore. Another favorite thing is my rediscovery of living the frat life. So what if I'm 22? Being back at Sigma Nu makes me feel like I'm 18 all over again. I mean why on earth did I ever stop going to these wonderful places? Free alcohol, lots of new people, raging parties, and not over-crowded over-heated bars. Now I remember why my first two years at Purdue were such a grand adventure.

As for the bars, the only enjoyable time to actually go is during the week. On the weekends, the bars are far too crowded. Why the hell has Purdue not gotten at least another bar to replace poor little Stacks?? Is it too much to ask to spread out all these students packed so hard into the bars that you can't even move? I'm definitely avoiding bars on the weekends until such an event occurs. In the meantime, you can find me getting fratty like the youngin that I'm not, but wish I could still be. I'm so very jealous of all those people who have several years of college left ahead of them, for this is my final year and I fully intend on living it up. Watch out!