Sharing Time

ahhh lucky for me no one really reads my blog.... SO I've decided to brave putting up one of my poems... perhaps I'll decide to put up more later, we'll see... This is a poem from my poetry class a year ago.

The Wreck

Everything is glazed over like and eye's vision after a long cry

a twin sized bed centered in an all white room

lit only by the dim yellow light of fluorescents above

needles prod into my arm, forcing cool liquids through my veins

the beep-beep of a heart monitor squeezes my head

This is not my room,

no time for questions.

my eyelids, oversized curtains

shutting out the room

with closed eyes I see what brought me here

only everything is backwards

strapped down to a board

someone pumps air into my lungs

why can't I breathe on my own?

flashing lights, red and white

but they are upside down

and my head is scraping the roof of my car

I see my mother

reaching her hands out to me just the way she did

the last time I saw her

spinning me around blending

images into colors draining down a sink

being swallowed, turning into white

lights blinking, a horn blaring

wake up, it says, wake up!

and when i do there is nothing

but the sound of metal crunching

and bones snapping

In With the Old

I love when I go back through my itunes after a few years and make a playlist of all the songs I used to love so much. It's like rediscovering them, and loving them just as much as I did the first time around. It also takes me back through so many memories that will stay with me forever.

My favorite song forever in high school was Konstantine by Something Corporate, and after listening to it probably over 500 times in my life, I still will never stop loving it. Every time it can take me back to the summer before my sophomore year of high school riding in the car with my best friend Caitlin and her mom. We had just spent our night with two boys whom we swore we were in love with, as if we knew what such a thing was. That song meant everything to us for so long it's hard to not go back to those times. I miss her and how we were all those endless nights together. I still make a wish every time I catch 11:11. Something Corporate was also the first concert I ever went to, where Caitlin and I were the only two people there belting out every last lyric to Konstantine.

I always have favorite bands coming and going, but the one album that will always be number one in my heart is Transatlanticism by Death Cab for Cutie. That album got me through my days in high school when I tuned out every other kid in the halls and let the music keep me moving. The songs on that album will never be old to me no matter what, and I will never forget the hours I spent doing all of my artwork to it.

This is me telling everyone to go back through your old playlists, old albums you loved, anything you can find, and listen to them. Live your memories through them and enjoy.

Real Life

Since I've been incredibly sick, I've been spending a lot of time sitting in my room hanging out with HBO and Showtime. How wonderful it is to watch endless movies, which bring me to write this blog. Last week I watched The Time Travelers Wife. While this movie did make me cry sadly, it is nothing close to realistic. Obviously I know people cannot time travel, but that is not what I'm referring to. I'm talking about the love between to two main characters. The same love you see in movies like the Notebook. I do not believe that love like this exists. Someone please prove me wrong. Has anyone ever truly seen two people so "in love," that they literally hurt to be away from each other? Watch these movies and tell me you've ever been through this. If you have, then consider yourself lucky I guess. As for me? I am in love with a city, and that city is New York. New York won't ditch me for another girl, New York won't let me down, and New York will always be there for me!

Until one day that oh so great thing they call love comes and slaps me in the face... I do not believe in it.

Rediscovering what it's like to be a Freshman!

It may be my 5th year at Purdue this year, but really I feel like I'm a freshman all over again in the best ways possible! First, walking around campus to class, I find that I run into not nearly as many people as I used to forcing me to make uncomfortable small talk and awkward hellos. This may be one of my favorite things about the new year, as well as not having to see all those damn sorority bitches out anymore. Another favorite thing is my rediscovery of living the frat life. So what if I'm 22? Being back at Sigma Nu makes me feel like I'm 18 all over again. I mean why on earth did I ever stop going to these wonderful places? Free alcohol, lots of new people, raging parties, and not over-crowded over-heated bars. Now I remember why my first two years at Purdue were such a grand adventure.

As for the bars, the only enjoyable time to actually go is during the week. On the weekends, the bars are far too crowded. Why the hell has Purdue not gotten at least another bar to replace poor little Stacks?? Is it too much to ask to spread out all these students packed so hard into the bars that you can't even move? I'm definitely avoiding bars on the weekends until such an event occurs. In the meantime, you can find me getting fratty like the youngin that I'm not, but wish I could still be. I'm so very jealous of all those people who have several years of college left ahead of them, for this is my final year and I fully intend on living it up. Watch out!

Lets give it up for the flight attendant!

Flight Attendant Escapes!

http://www.neatorama.com/2010/08/09/flight-attendant-quits-while-on-plane-bails-using-emergency-slide/

First of all, this is one of the greatest stories I've heard on the news in quite some time. What a great way to run out of your job... unless of course you're looking for a reference.

Today I worked a 9 hour shift without even a small break. After endless hours of putting on a smile and acting like a bubbly overeager girl ready to serve, really the only thing I want to do is slap the next person in the face who asks me to do something for them. I think everyone gets a little sick of work once in a while... or often. Who wouldn't want to go out the way that this guy did? If I had the money, I'd have bailed this guy out just because he is awesome and I think what he did was ballsy and hilarious. Serves that woman right, I hope she thinks twice next time she plans to yell at someone for doing their JOB.

Sometimes it's the smallest things in your day that can matter the most. When someone is serving you, be sure to treat them with respect. Sure it may be their job to serve you, but they are working just as hard as you do to earn their way through life. Even just a simple smile and a thank you or you did a great job! can mean the most in a person's day. After a day of several horrible nightmare tables in a shift, sometimes all it takes is one great table to turn my day around! Remember this next time you go out to eat or to get a drink.

One Year

John Andrew Mcdaniel 3/24/88 - 8/09/09

I can't believe it has officially been an entire year since the world lost such a wonderful person... It seems like only yesterday I was singing alongside him in church choir as giddy little elementary school kids cracking jokes all day. While the time has been slow, it has also flown by. Although we would do anything to get to spend more time with John, we can all relive our best memories of him each day and enjoy that we had as much time as we did. Last night at midnight Amy and I took a John bomb for you buddy! I know you wouldn't expect anything less on a Sunday evening ; ) Keep looking over us all

New York City, New York Pretty

A week after leaving the greatest city in the world, and I still can't wait to get back! All I can think about is counting down the months, weeks, days till I will be living there. Now to relive the adventures of last week....

After the terrible airport debacle of Thursday evening, Friday went much smoother. I like to think the horrible incident of Thursday lead me to have one of the best trips of my life! On the plan I got to sit in a seat next to NO ONE which is great for me because I hate being cramped on planes. Also, I got to sit on the sit of the plane that faces the entire city instead of just water. How lucky am I? I got to see the Statue of Liberty and all of New York City before even landing!

A lovely salad and unpacking later, Bre and I were off the the Metropolitan Museum of Art where we scampered around like tourists following large heards of Asians through the building. My favorite part? Either the impressionists paintings (always a favorite) or the roof top where we got a great view of the big city itself!

Friday night begin with my favorite place of the week, Angels and Kings, which happens to be the bar created by Pete Wentz. Aside from the live bands and strong drinks, Breann and I met some really cool people. This is definitely a bar that she and I will have to frequent when I move. The rest of the evening didn't last long since we were rookies having not drank in so long!

Saturday I got to go to the famous Central Park and experience the wrath of walking for about 45 minutes before even reaching a large chunk of the park. Of course the park was as amazing as the movies make it out to be, in fact, it's way bigger than I ever even imagined. Saturday night ended in a wild bar crawl through the lower east side, my favorite area!

As my trip came to an end, I wanted nothing more than to stay forever. Come the end of May and graduation, I can't wait to begin my life in New York City with Breann. She will have a big head start, but we will take the city by storm either way!

The Wrath of the Airport

I should have been in New York City basking in the glory of Thai food with my best friend 3 hours ago... but where am I you ask? Thanks to LGA and Delta I am back at home after the longest day ever! Here is what went down...

I arrived at the airport by 1:30 for my flight at 3:04pm. When I arrived to my oh so enjoyable terminal around 2pm I did not yet know how much of my day I would be spending there. When i first sat down, they delayed my flight to 3:50 so not bad right? Wrong. The lady at the counter announces that the flight from NY coming to Indy that would be taking us there had JUST taken off, and we would not board until 4:15. This girl sitting next to me gets the hiccups and proceeds to vomit all over herself yet no one seems to notice. WHAT? siiick... i turn around and she is dabbing it out of her hair with pages from a magazine... again WHAT? Who is this girl? is she drunk? probably. She is dressed all hippie nasty and doesn't even go to the restroom to clean up her own puke? What is wrong here? Of course I move away from her and sit on the ground to await my flight which gets delayed further to 5pm. 5PM I should be in NY at this time. But no, waiting on LGA to confirm that we can board and take off. 5:00 rolls around and my flight gets canceled. This is followed by me standing in a line for about another hour to get pushed to a friday 11am flight seeing how there is NOTHING taking off tonight. THANK YOU Delta and LGA for ruining my day, my weekend, and my summer trip. I am angry. I am upset. I am going to get something out of this!

So try number two: NEW YORK tomorrow 11am see you then!

Empire State of Mind

DESTINATION NEW YORK CITY!!

I am less than 5 hours away from landing in NEW YORK and seeing my favorite person in the world!! Goodbye midewest fields, hello skyscrapers and beautiful city! No more minivans please, just yellow cabs lining the streets! My bag is packed to the brim with clothes I probably won't even pull out of it, but better to be over prepared than under right? Perfect.

This weekend will change my life, it is time to map out where I'll be after I graduate in May. Makes me want to scream NEW YORK NEW YORK! See you in 4 days!

Remember Me

I went in to this movie expecting the typical chick flick drama that pretty much all movies fall into. True to form, this movie seemed to be heading in that direction, or so I thought. The end of the movie took such a surprising turn. Not only was I surprised and delighted at this change of events, but it even brought me to tears. I can’t believe it has not gotten more attention. Maybe because it has Robert ‘I’m so hot that I don’t need to be a good actor’ Pattinson as the main character, but even he played his part much better than he does a vampire. The main characters made me feel insignificant in the world for all of the trouble they went through. Do we need to have such tragedies in our lives to create such passion in love? Sure everyone has their own problems, but so many are so small when brought into the bigger picture. In the end, I will say that Remember Me will definitely be added into my list of favorite movies.

I also went and saw Inception the day it came out of course. This movie had all the promise in the world with two of my favorite actors, one of my favorite actresses, and my favorite director Christopher Nolan. After coming out of it, I believe it lived up to my expectations. The ending left me wondering about it for hours, and I want to see if again and again. I feel like it will be just the way Batman Begins was for me, where I will be able to find new things about it every time I watch it.

Closing Time

I just got done closing at work tonight and i have two things to say. One, why come into a restaurant and linger there late at night when you know it is closing and the servers want nothing more than to leave? Two, if you can't afford to tip your server at least 20% then don't be going out to eat. I love my work and everyone i work with, but some customers can be so disrespectful. If it takes a while for you food to come out, that is generally not your servers fault, but maybe the kitchen is running a little behind or something, so don't take it out on your server!

Anyways, only 41 more hours till i will be in NYC! Lets take a moment to pause and think about the many great things that lie ahead in just hours!

most importantly... number 1. Seeing BREANN!

2. catching up with Breann

3. experiencing Times Square and Manhattan

4. Getting wasted off of happy hour specials at Pete Wentz's lounge

5. Getting wild at bars/lounges with Fiji friends from PU

6. Central Park

7. The Met

8. flea markets

9. did i mention seeing Breann?

10. NY style pizza the BEST!

11. dressing up

12. stalking the residence of Gabe Saporta

13. cash cab?

14. this list is endless!!!!

Clearly we see my excitement... the only thing im not looking forward to? packing. I feel like when i pack for a trip, no matter what it's for, or how long it is, i will no doubt overpack, but forget to bring the one thing i will wish i had. This seems to happen to me ALL the time! This is why i am going to majorly plan ahead everything down to my shoes thanks to Bre's outfit itinerary!

Tomorrow I am going to workout, shower, get sunned, make dinner/hang with my brother, and let the packing begin! 41 hours and counting....

To Blog or Not to Blog

Although i can't imagine people stumbling upon my blog and wanting to read some strangers rants about life, hopefully that is exactly what happens here. In just 2 more days i will be painting the streets of New York City with my best friend Breann. I am sure to have plenty to write about when i return, but to start off my blog i will share a little about myself....

I am a creative writing student at Purdue University, making my victory lap and planning to graduate in May. My plan is to immediately escape the midwest and head off to New York in search of a job. Of course, i will be working on novels on the side in hopes of my true dreams coming true. Now back to reality, two more semesters of living the good life, enjoying the party scene, and sleeping my way through class. Ah the wonderful life of a college student, i can;t imagine anything better.

Because this is a blog and not actual writing, don't always be expecting correct punctuation and capital I's because lets face it, i am just too lazy for that. So don't go running away too soon!